Invidiousness AKA ENVY, occurs when a person lacks another's (perceived)  superior quality, achievement, or possession and either desires it or wishes that the other lacked it." This is the term for ENVY that I found in the dictionary. After reading it, I can definitely say that this seems to be the emotion that I see being displayed.  

Envy also derives from low self-esteem, resulting from an upward social comparison threatening a person's self image: another person has something that the envier considers to be important. If the other person is perceived to be similar to the envier, the aroused envy will be particularly INTENSE, because it signals to the envier that it just as well could have been he or she who had the desired object. 

Recently I've felt victimised by what I can only seem to identify as ENVY. What my abuser doesn't know is that I've been educated to recognise this behaviour.

I find it hard to understand why some people I come across seem to treat me as if i have some of these (perceived) qualities......I am no better or worse than a one else I know. 

I can't be sure but, I try to act the same with my friends, as I do with anyone else I come in contact with. I think I'm genuinely friendly to everyone I spend time with, regardless of how they treat me.  

I'm pretty easy going and I'm positive that I don't have any underlying ulterior motives. I like to have a chat to most people who are approachable and I don't mind what we speak about. I have an opinion on just about anything and I have the ability to 'Speak my mind freely'!!

I guess some people don't like to hear what is on your mind......they rather you keep quiet and keep your opinions to yourself. Well I can assure you, I'm not that type of person who can keep my opinions to myself!!

I can say with most certainty that I get on peoples nerves because I'm boisterous and sometimes over the top. My honesty can offend but that's what makes me who I am!! I'm not a liar and if someone asked me to tell a lie, I'm positive that my guilt would have me confessing in a heartbeat!! 

I know everyone we come in contact with is not going to like you, but it would be nice if they didn't 'like you' to your face, yet bitch about you behind your back!! I'm not one to hold a grudge, so if someone pisses me off today, I can turn around tomorrow and be their best friend.......like wiping the slate clean!!

Living with hatred in your heart and holding on to anger will most definitely send to your grave early......it's so much easer to be happy and easygoing......but these qualities can be envied!!