Yesterday my Calendar alert alerted me that my daughter had an appointment in the city for a laser treatment on her eye brows, which I had forgot about. This realisation meant that I had to rearrange my Saturday afternoon plans!! (planned Pilate's Class out the window .......DAMN IT!!)

I set a "Wake Up" alarm for the next morning and began the tedious job of texting everyone to cancel my plans!! 

My morning alarm sang and I jumped out of bed!! I wanted to get an early start so that I could get back in time to head to the movies with My Best Fag Friend. ("When in Rome" was our movie of choice)

We hit the road, after a quick stop at my local Krispy Kreme (I love being mistreated early in the morning by these Fuckers, but the beautiful Sister CT assisted me and made me a delicious Tall Vanilla Chai......no complaints today) 

I'm still scared to drive all the way into Sydney CBD (Central Business District) on my own, so I planned to half drive into Kingsgrove and catch the train from there into the City Centre, jumping off the train at Martin Place......almost at the front door of the Clinic!! 

My daughters treatment took about 10 minutes and we were on our way home again (it's seems like a long wasted trip for only a 10 minute laser treatment.......I know!!)

As we were riding home on the train I happened to click onto Facebook chat (cause I'm addicted) and who did I see online? 

I saw Mr. B!! That's right.......I saw my first true love online!! I've never seen him online on Facebook, so of course I quickly initiated a casual conversation.

He ignored my chat which now has my brain working overtime wondering why? Was it his new wife on his account? Does he even know how to chat on Facebook (only a dummy wouldn't know how to Facebook Chat so I'm fooling myself asking that question) Is he mad at me? 

My friends who know me well, will know that I'll spend the next week obsessing over this mans trivial unexplained standoffish behaviour. (for which I have no rational reason why I even care)

Last year, we emailed each other over 150 emails confessing our feelings during our year and a half affair years ago, and confessing our present feelings!! I don't know why he even bothered last year to confess his true feelings about us, if he was only going to ignore me after doing it!! (never mind that he said he would never remarry, then a half a year later he's taking the plunge again......dumb fuck!!)

I'm sure this dilemma will spark a few dreams that will include him.....so my nightmares will start again.....FUCK!!

(OH WELL.....MORE TO BLOG ABOUT RIGHT!!)

At least I know he's checking Facebook to see that I'm still alive......and the funniest part is......I BUSTED HIM DOING IT!! bahahaha